Its goodbye blog.

Thru thick or thin
no matter what I'm here for you,i just want you to know,n even tho i cant change whats done,
but i can promise to love u and support u thru it all
Love,ur alien...

Goodbye.

Holding on to a dream long enough

The day that I've been waiting for is getting closer,

I wonder how will it turn out to be,

I've dreamed about that day,

the fairytale inside my head has become my new best friend,

but I can assure you I'll be there before the story ends..

Will you welcome me with open arms,

Or will you have forgotten me by then..

Already planning the journey and calculating the fares,

I'm seeing what I've been speaking of all this while geting clearer and clearer.

There are risks i'm going to have to run through,

but in the end,I know all my efforts will reveal all that should be.

Would I have been better off the other way

Ever been in that situation where you think you made the wrong decision in life,

where you thought you could have been better if you took the other path?

..

Well,It does come to me all the time..

almost every minute of my life..

I always loved doing music,

when I'm on the guitar or the piano,

its just so relaxing,

it feels so right,

everything has meaning,

when I perform on stage and I see the faces,

Its like its telling me this is where I belong...

entertaining others quickly became a hobby to me,

since I was a kid,

making people enjoy music,

making people seee that music cures all broken hearts and misery in the end.

I was never good in accounts and here I am saying I'm gonna be an accountant,

funny..

but I guess Im not wise enough to make my own decisions,

just following what my parents are ordering me to do,

they should know the difference in being a musicman and an accountant,

I trust their decision and making music into a form of entertaint I do for the public,

prioritizing studies instead..

guess we'll just see in the future whether it was worth being the accoountant rather than the musicman (:

Music just never ends in my life,

It has played an important part when I was a kid and still is now.

Its just sad I couldnt bring it as a career.

It has never failed me

It got me out of ciggarettes and drugs,

Music will always be the light I see .

But in reality some things just arent meant to be.

on a sunday afternoon

finals are starting this coming friday,
studying but it just doesnt seem enough,
been busy with studies lately,
with the thought of moving to australia in my head,
it gets kinda hard to study.
made up my mind to go anyway..
and I promised myself that nothing can change my mind (:

Lets just fall in love again (:

Lets pretend baby,
that you just met me,
and I never seen you before..

I'll tell all my friends,
that I think your staring and you say the same to yours (:

We'll dance around it all night and i'll follow you outside,
And I'll try to open up my mouth but nothing comes out right. (:

I dont have to try,
Its so easy,
Who needs to pretend? (:
So honey..
Lets just fall in love again (:

When Will It Stop..

It isnt easy,
waking up to a never ending torture,
Everything's the same in my life,
the scenery,
the places,
the people,
the life,
but within all these same things,
there is one thing that is missing,
which is you.

I'm studying but I just cant get my mind of you,
I find it so hard to focus,
I'm hardly on yr mind now,
and your still always ringing in my head,
just like how you used to be..

Its not easy thinking of someone who doesnt think of you the same way,
Its not easy missing someone who doesnt miss you the same way too,
I miss the girl who comes back to me at the end of the day,
the girl that told me i'm her number 1,
I'm fighting so hard to get her back,
But i see now..
No matter how hard I fight,
It doesnt guarantee me a spot in her life anymore..
I'm not going to force her,
Just hoping that In the End,
all my efforts was worthwhile..
I'd do anything to get her back,
I cant face the fact that she's gone,
even till now.

dont say that I'm obsessed,
I'm not.
I just havent moved on,
I keep telling myself that we'll make it through,
But I dont know,
she dont seem to look forward to seeing me much,
things are complicated,
and it means the world to me..

Put the complications aside and just return into my arms,
they really long for you baby girl.

We said as each day goes by we're getting closer and closer,
I feel that with each day,
we are getting closer and closer physically,
but emotionally I just feel you getting further and further away from me.
Its tearing me to shreds and there's nothing much I can do.

I dont think about it much anymore,
I'm flowing,
But I realize the more I flow,
The more I'm missing her.

Sitting and studying reminding myself that we'll make it through,
I know we will.

I'm just letting go emotions here,
Please excuse my unpoliteness.

A friend dedicated a song for me at the pub the other day and here it goes,
She's always on my mind
From the time I awake up 'till I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know
And though she's so far away
It just keeps gettin' stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
so tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

My friends keep tellin' me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in kind
I'll know she's mine
But tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

(Repeat Chorus)

Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so

(Repeat Chorus)

Heaven knows
Heaven knows ......

Rick Price - Heaven Knows.

Your the only direction I see.

I dont know what im doing anymore,
i cant think from wrong to right,
all i'm thinking about is the next time I get to touch you,smell your scent and feel yr hand agaisnt mine once again,
which is I dont know when,
a long time maybe...

I wake up every morning,
Feeling heartbroken,
Knowing I wont get to see your face,
the face i got so used to for more than a year now,
It was never easy letting go,
and i'm not strong enough to do so now either,
I just cant wait to see you again.

Rite now,
Thats all im looking forward to..
I just hope that we will make it all the way to that day,
I too feel myself changing..
Into something more independant slowly but surely

In this period of confusion,
Fear has gotten its hands all over my heart,
and there's nothing i can do,
but just waiting in this dark corner and hoping,
Deep down..

Knowing I still L*** You
My heart has turned numb.

But even with all this darkness wrapped around me,
I still am enduring and pushing myself to make us happen.
So dont dissapoint me,
If anyone could see what I'm going through for us,
I think they'd be dead shock to know there's a person who has a heart like mine still living in this world.

I just found out I have an accounting test tomorrow,
Guess I'll be up studying the whole night again.
Gotta get studying (:

Looking at them,I wish you were here.

I shed tears when i play my guitar alone in my room,
Every song makes me think of us,
Always being alone without you,
Sitting here right now alone..
Makes it even harder..

Your busy with your life and I dont want to disturb you,
But looking at others happily wrapped around each other,
reminds me of how we used to wrap around each other.

Your arms around mine,
Mine around yours.
Its heartbreaking not having you around.

I was never into dating,
never into going out with other girls,
My love and affection is still for you.

I look forward to seeing you at night,
But sometimes your not free for me,
and sometimes you even find me annoying,
i'm kinda getting used to it..

I just really wish I could hold you right now.
Like how we used to.

success is better off shared

Dont you think?
Success is better off shared with teammates or someone special?
so what if your a big shot now?
and what if you have alot of money?
what if you won first place?
the feeling only lasts that long..
and the feeling is pointless..

I understand why people share now..
Stuff is better off being shared...
no matter victory or the small things..
share it..
you'll enjoy it (=

Bad news bad news and oh... whadda ya know.. more BAD NEWS!

I'm not the kind of person who likes to whine but i'm sick of all this,
sick of this feeling..
I cant wake up in the morning without hearing you shouting at me or slamming on my door,
I cant do my work in peace,
i'm always being questioned constantly,
where have I been?
Who was I out with?
Why do you have other people's stuff in your room?
Where did you get the money?
Who are you mixing with?

I'm not doing anything wrong..
I'm just being me..
I got work and assignments to do..
besides all that I have a test on saturday..
The only place where I can have peace is out of this house,
you dont even let me out nemore,
the only place I can go is for classes..

I'm so sick of you tie-ing me down,
Someone put a smile on my face..
I dont have the mood to smile..
Every phone call you'll be there to make sure who i'm talking to..
my room is like a public toilet now,you go in and out without knocking,
you unlock the door without knocking..

I'm just so sick of waking up,
give me something to look forward to..
cause the only time I can have peace now is when i'm on the LRT on the way to class.

I can't wait to leave

Stay Close,Don't Go

I havent been able to focus on the things I do lately,
My heart is constantly missing you,
Afraid of you moving on someday,
Thinking of how I would accept it if that day really comes,
I shouldnt be thinking bout it right now..

Emotions have been taking over me very aggresively lately,
I feel heavy just walking around these days,
looking at all my friends busy with their girlfriends,
I dont know how to say or what to say but singing makes me feel better,
And the best way to express this feeling is still the old fashioned way,
Mu$i€!! (:

Yes I admit,
I'm still in love with her,
very much in love in fact,
And here's how it goes,
Enjoy~

I'm staring at the glass in front of me,
is it half empty have i ruined all you've given me?
I know I've been selfish,
I know I've been foolish,
but look through that
and you will see,
I'll do better, I know,
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don’t leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,
I listen to your breathing,
amazed how I somehow managed to
sweep you off your feet girl,
your perfect little feet girl
I took for granted what you do.
But I'll do better, I know
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don’t leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

And don't you know my heart is open, oh,
it's putting up the fight,
and I've got this feeling,
that everything's alright,
and don't you see,
I'm not the only one for you
but you're the only one for me.

If you leave me tonight I'll wake up alone,

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don’t leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

This is one of the ten reasons why I love you so much,
"No girl in this world can make me put up a fight for her the way you make me,
For you I can do things I nvr knew I could"

She's busy studying at the moment,
If I could,I would spend everynight serenading to her,
just like tonight,
Treasuring her till the day when I really lose her,
But this is reality and we humans are obliged to jobs and work,
So yeah.. I'm getting real!

Wishing her all the best of luck she can get for her first exams in aussie!

maximize her sexual pleasures!

This is how you do it!

When in bed with yr partner,
Always be DOMINANT! (chicks love it)
Show them that your always in control of them,
In other words,
Buffen up so you can take full control over them,
you call the shots,
you be the playmaker!
every position,
every posture,
you control it!

Flip them to go any side you want,
Give it to them hard and fast so that they enjoy it,
role play turns them on even more!
always hear the sound of how they moan,
it tells you whether yr hitting her in the right way,
make sure she's pleasured!

be creative!
dont stick to one position all the time,
change it,
unlike all the porn you watch they suck!
they are doing positions to best fit the camera and is not meant to be followed!
it doesnt pleasurize their partner to the max!

most people dont really care,
but honestly,
this could save yr lovelife or marriage!
Its important,
i'm serious!

Why I even bothered to learn this and share it to the world is because,
I wanna make sure I give my wife what she wants! and what she needs! in the future,
and I wanted to let more people know about this,
as it does help maintain yr marriage as well! (:

Give it to her Hard and Deeep!
Or let some other guy do it for her and you just watch!

I'm already feeling so happy for whoever who turns out to be my wife,
what a lucky gal she'll be! (;

Some of you who read this might think this is just horny,
but this could save yr love life,
so yea .. try to take it seriously (:

I Love you and this blog just as much,But perhaps this is Goodbye

I dont know where to throw my emotions,
I love this blog,
I really really do,
You made it for me,
I treasured it,
But i just cant afford to look at it if things really end,
its too hard for me,
I'm only human,
I just can't....

Things like life without you are going through my head,
My whole cupboard is full of memories of you,
memories of you are scaterred all around my room,
They're strong enough to keep me from moving on,
How do I start over without you..
At least not now..
I cant lift the memories of us and throw it all away,
Its just too heavy,
No matter how big I may grow or how long I've been to the gym,
No muscle in me is strong enough to lift it..

I dont know where to go,
no matter where I go,
Where i run,
What i do,
it all comes down to you,
How did I fall so crazily in love with you,
what happened...
You grew on me so tight in such a short period of time...

It doesnt matter now,
I'm afraid..
I really am,
I never saw this coming for us,
not at all..

words really cant express how I feel now,
its beyond words..
knowing me,
I see what crazy things i'll do after your gone..
I'm afraid...

I should let you go for yr happiness,
But I can't..
I dont know how to say it..
Tears wont stop flowing..
I'm just not in the mood for anything...
Feelings are jumping up and down...

I should let you go,
I'm pulling you down,
suffocating you..
I should let you go
Let you go...

Let her go...
Let her go..
Let her go...
Dont let her go...

I dont know!

Hit me with yr best shot,
Punch me as hard as you can,
Suddenly I dont feel a thing anymore,
I honestly think that if a car were to hit me now I wouldnt feel a thing..
Gimme yr best shot,
Nothing could hurt more than losing you..

I'm preparing for the worst,
watching all that i've build with you,
together as one..
falling down,
crashing down,
falling apart..
splitting from one into two..

Its not that I want to make it hard for you to let go,
I just cant ..
I dont have the heart to do it..

What is love?

Love isnt like a football game where you just simply put the ball in the net,
its not like fishing a fish out of water or just simply pulling a fish out of water,
its more than that..

Its complicated,
it can be scary sometimes,
it works in so many ways,
we cant understand...

It can be the best feeling you'll have in yr life,
and it can also be the worst..

I cant explain Love...
Someone explain it to me

Imaginations taking over

She wrote a song for him,
He wrote a song for her,
I wrote a song for a special someone,

So I wonder...
Will it ever be my turn to get a song from a special someone?
Is there someone out there that'll love me enough to that for me?
I'll be waiting to see (=

You'll be ringing in my head~

Though I won't be seeing you tonight,
You know it'll be alright,
for you know that a part of me is always thinking of you,
no matter whether its day or night..

cause when i'm up there,
i'll thinking of the both of you,
the pink round figure (=
and the slim sexy figure (=

All i'm saying is,
or rather what i want you to know is,
that even though i wont be seeing you tonight,
your already ringing me uptight..

and at the end of the day,
when i've collapsed in the soft feathers of my bed,
all that i'll be hearing...

Is the sound of you ringing in my head~ <3

I really want to win this

Its a popular game among all malaysians,
Its a game where races come together and where all sorts of racism suddenly doesnt seem to matter,
You havent lived till you've tried it,
you cant call yrself a complete malaysian boy till you've tried it,
Yes,I'm talking about football! =D

Well,Here's what I want to say for today,

My dad was a football player for his state,
He was a big shot football player,
He has trophies taller than me when i was a kid,
the friends he introduced me to were all big shot football players,
they played for their companies,
they played for their states,
they played for their country,
they all had their shot of glory during their teenage days...

I've won trophies,medals,prizes..
But never was it for my footsal or my football,
Everytime I enter a footsal competition,
I'd always end up 1 step away from the prize,

Yes,I really mean 1 step!
I always seem to lose out at the finals round,
2nd place was always what I got,
Never the first...
My dad always says I'm accurate,I have the muscle,the skills.. but i'm just not fast enough..

It may not matter to most people but it matters to me,
Never had I made my dad proud of my football before,
The upcoming MUFY games is coming,
This may be my last shot at making it right before I leave..

I really wanna go faster,

Been doing alot of runing lately,hopefully its enough? lol

Gotta get studying now,bye peoples~! (=

MY FIRST 100 MARKS PAPER!

I woke up around 9 this morning,
I was thinking of my daily activites,
homework,working out,studying...
Just the usual ~

I had a free-off day today,
spent it doing assignment and chatting online,
I was summoned by the Director of MUFY to go see her at 2.45 though,
I was there on time (knowing me,thats a big deal =P)

She discussed a few things about my results and that they had wrongly recorded my results,
It was actually higher than they recorded =P (Good News)

As I was walking out of the office,
I met my maths teacher who told me i got full marks for the exam
I couldnt belieave it,I asked him:
"You very sure I got full marks?"
And he looked at me smilling and laughing saying "Yes,you did"

I was like WTF!!!
Thats my first full mark paper in my life!
I told mum as soon as i got it,she was so happy she started talking to me about my lancer hahaha

This calls for a celebration!
I'm off to play futsal now,
Goodbye fellow viewers! (=

wonderful day at aussie~

spent the day with kenneth lau..
sorry but i was having fun till i fergot to take pictures,my apologize (=
anyways,we ran around melbourne city trying to find apartments to stay in when i come over during may/june/july and have found a few possible places..
thanks so much for showing me around and teaching me the trams and stuff kenneth (=
appreciate it..

we went to play pool after we got tired and yea he still beat me,he's good lol..
went to his house to watch tv on foxtel till my parents came and fetch me,i must say foxtel is good (=

Uncle sam took us to eat vietnamese at a restaurant,the pork chop was great,love it so much (=

not in a really hyper mood today,dead tired from runing around town,to all my fellow viewers..

Goodnight and sweet dreams (=

its 3a.m.

Its 3a.m i must be lonely..
She's always worried bout things like that...
but outside it starts raining~~~
Well Yeah and she says BABEY~~!!

This song is from matchbox twenty,its called 3a.m.
thaught it'd be perfect for a time like this (=

haha.. its 3a.m. and i'm cold.. cant sleep..
there's no heaters in the room i'm sleeping in.
how sad is that?!?!

i'm actually really tired but i cant sleep cause its cold..
so here i am online..
cant find many people nice to talk to chat now
so i'mma try to go to sleep!

that was rather random for a post =P
Goodnight fellow viewers~! (=

I'm Baaaaccckk!

Sorry fellow viewers for the lack of update and inconsistency,has been busy with exms and auditions lately..
And still..
The hell hasnt ended )=

okay okay.. anyways,here's a lil update bout me n what i've been up to (=
I've been studying the past few days,till late in the nights,hard to believe i know ..
and yeah i've been researching songs to play for the upcoming cimp talent night..
I still have a globalisation assignment and a computer assignment to hand up ..

Neways,I Found my accounts test rather problematic somehow,they twisted the questions,zzz.. Maths today was easy... and OH YEAH!... I MADE IT THROUGH AUDITIONS!!! (feels like american idol,lol).. Woohoo! .. and and.. the judges loved me and my band so much they told us to make sure we turn up on tht day (=

erm.. oh yeah.. to all the love birds out there..

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

Love is in the air..
and most people couldnt care..
but if i were to care..
i'd definitely want a teddy bear! (=

random short poem,lol

I'll be spending valentines day on the airplane to Aussie anyway,haha.. what a lonely valentines ~

A little private message: Just wanted you to know,I'll be thinking of last year's valentines when i'm on the plane (=

Another private message: Porky,Daddy misses you alot .. and i'm not mad at you okay?.. Oink Oink ^^

This is to you

You were there for me through my heartbreaks,
And you were there for me when I found my first love,
you were always there to support me and get me out of trouble,
showing me the lmits of life and telling me not to do it..

You were like a friend but in a different way,
a parents and a friend perhaps?
but you were always warning me and limiting me,
reminding me of the border lines i was about to cross..

Now that your gone,
i dont know whether i might cross the line by accident,
but that isnt important,
i've made you worry enough and i know that the only way to end it,
was to proove it to you..

"Proove me wrong!"
Those were the last words you whispered in my ear,
there's more but i guess you didnt have time to finish it,
But i promise you i'll be there

i wish you all the best while your there,
and may you find your comfort zone quickly,
fit in with the crowd,
and study hard..
I know you will,
you always did..

This is to you,
Thanks for always being there for me when i never saw what was going to hit me..
I'll miss you ...

Sick!

I found myself looking on,
ignoring all around me,
looking at my friends around me,
Havent spent a second of joy that i can have..

I've got an accounts test on monday,maths test on wednesday,globalisation assignment to hand in by friday.. audition on tuesday..

Cant wait to shout out on stage once again,
It'll be even louder this year,
The feeling of rock'N'roll is back! (=

I'm feeling sick.. or maybe tired..
I'm worried..
Not prepared for my accounts test at all..
Might fail..

to the airport now..
A good friend is leaving..
another farewell to attend..
Chao! (=

Music thats keeping me going: Lights out dancing - Ever the Optimist
Worth the wait
The Narrator

I Blew It

Its not that i'm not happy with the way you are,
I never asked for improvement,
I've always admired the way you are,
Since before we even started dating..

You know that nobody else can make me feel the way you make me feel,
I've said it over and over,
and you've heard it over and over,
Deep inside you know it.

The reason why i entertain myself with such nonsense is to replace the pain of losing you,
I dont do it for my own entertaintment,
And those that i do look at,
doesnt even compare to you...
Not even abit...
Your still way above all of them.

I can search the world and not find one like you,
the way you do it,
nobody can do it the same,
its you I LONG for,
its you..
its you..

Dont get me wrong,
I didnt mind falling into yr unplanned plan,
I wish there were more coming for us,

I dont know whether you'll read this,
But for all that's worth,
Your Gorgeous,
The G in your name stands for that,
Please remember that <3

Making memories

Had a talk with brother chee last night,I'm already facing the fact that i'll be going over to study with him..
And what bout all my other friends?
everyday i spend with them means alot to me now...
Everything we do together,
the times we spend together,
I'm treasuring it...
Cause i Know that this will be the last remaining good memories i'll have with them...
We grew up together,we fought with each other on the way,we've seen all that we've gone through together..
So rite now..
Appreciating them is really important to me..
Let's make memories (=

And i gotta start buffing up for aussie..
Off to play football now..

Chao~

I got robbed~

I was at asia cafe after a tiring game of futsal with some friends... we went in arnd 3.30 and came out arnd 5.30 in the morning..

the next thing you knew it my friend was asking for his laptop,which he had placed under my car seat..
at first we didnt pay mch attention to him,we thought it was just misplaced or some sort..
But it took us awhile to realize that the window of my car was shatered and pieces were lying everywhere..
Honestly I feel sad for my car but it still doesnt compare to losing a laptop

I would post pictures of the incident but my phone is having some problems uploading..
The lesson to learn is that never place expensive material in your car even if you think the robbers cant find it..

I spent the night in the police station and i'm very sleepy at the moment,but sadly i have to get my car fixed before my parents are back..

that's all for today,spreading the message so people dont make the same mistake..

Bye~!

Enjoyment

College has been pretty relaxing the past few days due to monash week.. Been having alot of fun with the bro's (Thanks guys!)

Exams arent here yet so I guess there's still time to enjoy college (=

Gotta start revising soon though lol...

Been playing facebook in fd maths class the past few days,i've been through fd maths so basically i finish the work fast before everyone and have alot of free time in fd maths class (=

Did all my work for today already,Looking forward to futsal tomorrow,MUFY games and hopefully the CIMP Performance Night,Havent been on stage for quite sometime now (=

Off to enjoy the wonders of TV..

Bye world (=

A song And a Fairlady

I made many promises to you.. some I failed to accomplish even after you've left me.. still i try hard to accomplish them.

I'm studying,i'm doing my work,I dont skip classes,I'm working out.. I'm focused on my studies

So believe me..

A song and a Fairlady.