I Love you and this blog just as much,But perhaps this is Goodbye

I dont know where to throw my emotions,
I love this blog,
I really really do,
You made it for me,
I treasured it,
But i just cant afford to look at it if things really end,
its too hard for me,
I'm only human,
I just can't....

Things like life without you are going through my head,
My whole cupboard is full of memories of you,
memories of you are scaterred all around my room,
They're strong enough to keep me from moving on,
How do I start over without you..
At least not now..
I cant lift the memories of us and throw it all away,
Its just too heavy,
No matter how big I may grow or how long I've been to the gym,
No muscle in me is strong enough to lift it..

I dont know where to go,
no matter where I go,
Where i run,
What i do,
it all comes down to you,
How did I fall so crazily in love with you,
what happened...
You grew on me so tight in such a short period of time...

It doesnt matter now,
I'm afraid..
I really am,
I never saw this coming for us,
not at all..

words really cant express how I feel now,
its beyond words..
knowing me,
I see what crazy things i'll do after your gone..
I'm afraid...

I should let you go for yr happiness,
But I can't..
I dont know how to say it..
Tears wont stop flowing..
I'm just not in the mood for anything...
Feelings are jumping up and down...

I should let you go,
I'm pulling you down,
suffocating you..
I should let you go
Let you go...

Let her go...
Let her go..
Let her go...
Dont let her go...

I dont know!

Hit me with yr best shot,
Punch me as hard as you can,
Suddenly I dont feel a thing anymore,
I honestly think that if a car were to hit me now I wouldnt feel a thing..
Gimme yr best shot,
Nothing could hurt more than losing you..

I'm preparing for the worst,
watching all that i've build with you,
together as one..
falling down,
crashing down,
falling apart..
splitting from one into two..

Its not that I want to make it hard for you to let go,
I just cant ..
I dont have the heart to do it..