Its goodbye blog.

Thru thick or thin
no matter what I'm here for you,i just want you to know,n even tho i cant change whats done,
but i can promise to love u and support u thru it all
Love,ur alien...

Goodbye.

Holding on to a dream long enough

The day that I've been waiting for is getting closer,

I wonder how will it turn out to be,

I've dreamed about that day,

the fairytale inside my head has become my new best friend,

but I can assure you I'll be there before the story ends..

Will you welcome me with open arms,

Or will you have forgotten me by then..

Already planning the journey and calculating the fares,

I'm seeing what I've been speaking of all this while geting clearer and clearer.

There are risks i'm going to have to run through,

but in the end,I know all my efforts will reveal all that should be.

Would I have been better off the other way

Ever been in that situation where you think you made the wrong decision in life,

where you thought you could have been better if you took the other path?

..

Well,It does come to me all the time..

almost every minute of my life..

I always loved doing music,

when I'm on the guitar or the piano,

its just so relaxing,

it feels so right,

everything has meaning,

when I perform on stage and I see the faces,

Its like its telling me this is where I belong...

entertaining others quickly became a hobby to me,

since I was a kid,

making people enjoy music,

making people seee that music cures all broken hearts and misery in the end.

I was never good in accounts and here I am saying I'm gonna be an accountant,

funny..

but I guess Im not wise enough to make my own decisions,

just following what my parents are ordering me to do,

they should know the difference in being a musicman and an accountant,

I trust their decision and making music into a form of entertaint I do for the public,

prioritizing studies instead..

guess we'll just see in the future whether it was worth being the accoountant rather than the musicman (:

Music just never ends in my life,

It has played an important part when I was a kid and still is now.

Its just sad I couldnt bring it as a career.

It has never failed me

It got me out of ciggarettes and drugs,

Music will always be the light I see .

But in reality some things just arent meant to be.

on a sunday afternoon

finals are starting this coming friday,
studying but it just doesnt seem enough,
been busy with studies lately,
with the thought of moving to australia in my head,
it gets kinda hard to study.
made up my mind to go anyway..
and I promised myself that nothing can change my mind (:

Lets just fall in love again (:

Lets pretend baby,
that you just met me,
and I never seen you before..

I'll tell all my friends,
that I think your staring and you say the same to yours (:

We'll dance around it all night and i'll follow you outside,
And I'll try to open up my mouth but nothing comes out right. (:

I dont have to try,
Its so easy,
Who needs to pretend? (:
So honey..
Lets just fall in love again (:

When Will It Stop..

It isnt easy,
waking up to a never ending torture,
Everything's the same in my life,
the scenery,
the places,
the people,
the life,
but within all these same things,
there is one thing that is missing,
which is you.

I'm studying but I just cant get my mind of you,
I find it so hard to focus,
I'm hardly on yr mind now,
and your still always ringing in my head,
just like how you used to be..

Its not easy thinking of someone who doesnt think of you the same way,
Its not easy missing someone who doesnt miss you the same way too,
I miss the girl who comes back to me at the end of the day,
the girl that told me i'm her number 1,
I'm fighting so hard to get her back,
But i see now..
No matter how hard I fight,
It doesnt guarantee me a spot in her life anymore..
I'm not going to force her,
Just hoping that In the End,
all my efforts was worthwhile..
I'd do anything to get her back,
I cant face the fact that she's gone,
even till now.

dont say that I'm obsessed,
I'm not.
I just havent moved on,
I keep telling myself that we'll make it through,
But I dont know,
she dont seem to look forward to seeing me much,
things are complicated,
and it means the world to me..

Put the complications aside and just return into my arms,
they really long for you baby girl.

We said as each day goes by we're getting closer and closer,
I feel that with each day,
we are getting closer and closer physically,
but emotionally I just feel you getting further and further away from me.
Its tearing me to shreds and there's nothing much I can do.

I dont think about it much anymore,
I'm flowing,
But I realize the more I flow,
The more I'm missing her.

Sitting and studying reminding myself that we'll make it through,
I know we will.

I'm just letting go emotions here,
Please excuse my unpoliteness.

A friend dedicated a song for me at the pub the other day and here it goes,
She's always on my mind
From the time I awake up 'till I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know
And though she's so far away
It just keeps gettin' stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
so tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

My friends keep tellin' me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in kind
I'll know she's mine
But tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

(Repeat Chorus)

Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so

(Repeat Chorus)

Heaven knows
Heaven knows ......

Rick Price - Heaven Knows.

Your the only direction I see.

I dont know what im doing anymore,
i cant think from wrong to right,
all i'm thinking about is the next time I get to touch you,smell your scent and feel yr hand agaisnt mine once again,
which is I dont know when,
a long time maybe...

I wake up every morning,
Feeling heartbroken,
Knowing I wont get to see your face,
the face i got so used to for more than a year now,
It was never easy letting go,
and i'm not strong enough to do so now either,
I just cant wait to see you again.

Rite now,
Thats all im looking forward to..
I just hope that we will make it all the way to that day,
I too feel myself changing..
Into something more independant slowly but surely

In this period of confusion,
Fear has gotten its hands all over my heart,
and there's nothing i can do,
but just waiting in this dark corner and hoping,
Deep down..

Knowing I still L*** You
My heart has turned numb.

But even with all this darkness wrapped around me,
I still am enduring and pushing myself to make us happen.
So dont dissapoint me,
If anyone could see what I'm going through for us,
I think they'd be dead shock to know there's a person who has a heart like mine still living in this world.

I just found out I have an accounting test tomorrow,
Guess I'll be up studying the whole night again.
Gotta get studying (: